Our Dear Mrs Reynolds

Flaming Tater-Tots February 24, 2010

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Life is a fascinating thing. I really do think that we should get a test run before we are allowed to play. It has taken me a long time to get the hang of it and I am sure I will continue to get new situations that I have not yet dealt with.

All in all, this year has been a pretty good one for me. I have reconnected with the one person from my past I was driving myself nuts trying to find, I am doing what I want to do, and I am letting life naturally flow. I pay attention to my gut.  I don’t put up with bullshit. I might still be too nice, but I don’t really consider that a bad thing anymore. I can be a nice person and if someone takes advantage of that, it is not a reflection on my character.

On that note, I am however concerned that people from my past and their behavior reflects on me and tarnishes my reputation/character. I hear stories (and/or gossip) and I think “Oh man, please don’t let anyone notice that this person knows me or is connected to me in some way”.  I know I should not let it bother me, I am a good person.

Recently I was asked what I was afraid of. My response was that I am afraid of not knowing how I will react to any given situation unless I have experienced it before . I used to think I knew how I would react, and I know now that I have no idea. I have continued to think on that question and I think I am also a little afraid of detaching myself from situations and people, and at the time I am afraid of not detaching myself.  I am not sure that will make sense to  anyone but me.

Now for something completely different – I feel a desire to lecture people on internet safety, you would think people would have learned by now. I had lunch with V last week and the kids (for some reason) talk openly with me. They were telling about things the say and do online and thought it was all cool because they ‘deleted’ the logs. They also post way too much information about themselves. I am sure they have had speakers in the school before, they are not getting it. Since they seem to like me maybe I can set up a lunch talk or something….hmmm…..

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